what are your fears?

    It's been a while since I've written about something. Since March, a lot of things have happened. It was a hell for me--to the point where I lost my will to write or even do things that I enjoy. 

    

    Today, I kind of  got inspired by what my classmate told me, that writing is my area of skill--since, we were talking about how good our classmates are in their areas of interest. To be honest, I know I am not that good but writing this can help me improve my skill.

    

    Actually, when I opened this app, I had no idea what to write. So, I went to Google to look for writing prompts. Then, I came across this list of ideas to write about and this idea caught my eye: write a scary story. It made me wonder: do I have a scary story to share? Nope. I don't have. So, I rephrased that to writing what I feared since.

    I feel like I grew up like a kid who doesn't know life--what life really is. I grew up in a complete family--which I am very lucky. Because I am the youngest among my siblings, I feel as if I grew up in my parents' care, where I was lovingly treated. So, I feel like they'll be there no matter what, and my mind refuse to believe that someday they'll leave. Like, really leave.

    What frightens me most is the fact that someday, I'll have to go through that phase--that part of life where I had to acknowledge they'll be gone, maybe sooner than I've imagined and that scares me. Whenever I anticipate how my life will be in the future, I always include them maybe they're just a little older but hey, they're there! 

    This has been my greatest dread since I was little. That's why I become affectionate towards my parents. I kiss them, hug them, obey them and say I love you almost everyday. Because I'm afraid that someday I might regret not being affectionate to them when they're gone.

    I know I should be glad that they're still here and I shouldn't worry about this. However, this is what I fear almost every day but I hope one day and when the day comes, I should know how to handle life and its losses. 

    And so should you. 

I love you mama and papa. hearts!

- abyss of abby