the author's worst agony

    

    Perhaps every writer's worst nightmare would be their inability to write and produce a piece out of their painーthe kind of heartache you can't even pen. I am (maybe was) the type of writer who can turn their grief  into something, like Taylor Swift. Well, because she is known for writing songs about her ex-lovers, while I, on the other hand, happened to write about every experience and distress I had with ever man I met. Maybe only to those who have a lasting impression on me.

    At this very moment, I am puzzled on how I'm going to write about youーor how I can get this bleeding off me. I can't seem to find the perfect words to put together to create a piece that can help me move forward from this. Maybe, overall, I can't write when I'm in deep misery. I can't ever finish a piece when I keep on shrugging off the thought of me being really, really affected by it. I won't be able to produce a thing when I keep on dismissing how much it maimed me. And sometimes, there is bitterness that is inexplicable and the only thing we can recognize is that we are in profound suffering.

    Well, maybe it is trueーthat when a writer's heart gets shattered, it's either the ache will fire them up to write further until it doesn't bleed anymore or they stop writing at all.

- abyss of abby